Final Decision-Never to Repeat!!!

What a day!!!The holidays are here...erm,so called holidays.. May 1 falls on a Sunday, so, it is kind of a long weekend for the students in Kelantan, Terengganu and Kedah...Since I am in Terengganu, so I get to enjoy this long weekend...I chose to stay back here instead of going back to Penang...I would be exhausted because the journey to Penang is way to long...Due to this, my friends and I thought of going somewhere to relax...The first thing that came to my mind was to go watch movie...Kemaman...this is the only place in Terengganu with a cinema..The journey there takes an approximately 3-4 hours...but, sad to say, the planning was not good...The story goes this way....I asked Paan to confirm whether my gang can follow him...he said yes...then when I pass this news on to my members, they shunned the idea...I understand that and I accept it..What I did not know was that the driver is in Kuantan and he will be back in Batu Rakit on Saturday morning...we are departing to Kemaman on Saturday!!!I was shocked...they planned to go in the afternoon and come back to IPG on Sunday morning...NOW, that is not a good idea..What if the guards refuse to open the gates for us???I can't imagine that..so, I voiced out my ideas...they accepted it...I told them again to follow Paan because they are leaving in the morning..They refused again!!!This makes me boil!!!No matter what, we will still meet each other at Mesra Mall..We are all heading to the same place!!pftttt!!!!!they feel discomfort to  go in huge groups...owh...come on people!!!some socialisation please!!!!!I cant do anything...thought of pulling out, but it is too late to do that...haish...If i disagree to that plan, they are going to cancel the whole thing...well, that makes me the BAD GUY!!!arghh!!!so hate this...Therefore, I have made my mind...THIS IS THE FINAL CHOICE I MAKE!!!!I am with full of regret now!!!hate it so much!!!

Of Life and Death

What is the meaning of life? Is it only about being successful in life? Is it only about being happy? Is it only about being a loser? Is it only about being a nerd? Is it only about being a loner? Is it only about being in desperation? OR is it about death?? This ultimate question has bugged me for the past few weeks. I finally found the answer. Life is partly about death. My dearest grandma. How I miss you. The fact that I wasn't able to be there to visit you is the GREATEST mistake in my whole life. I was meddling and playing with time. Begging time to extend its love to you. I didn't realise that time is so rebellious. It took its toll on you. Now, what do I do without you?My regrets can't be cured. Irreplaceable even. I still can't take this out of my mind. Others see me as being happy all the time. They did not know that deep inside my heart, I am crying blood. The passing of my grandma is the worst thing that could have ever happen. I can't imagine that this is happening to me. I would like to thank Pachi, Sharleena,and  Schiarielynn for the comforting words poured on me. Thanks to Dzul, Amani, Florina, Khai and Nurul for the understanding you guys have on my feelings. Gratitude to Ms Amrien, Ms Salma and Ms Izzati for the concern and comfort you passed to me. Before I make my exit, I have this to say: 

"You can shed tears that she is gone, 
or you can smile because she has lived.
You can close your eyes and pray that she'll come back,
or you can open your eyes and see all she's left.
Your heart can be empty because you can't see her,
or you can be full of the love you shared.
You can turn your back on tomorrow and live yesterday,
or you can be happy for tomorrow because of yesterday.
You can remember her only that she is gone,
or you can cherish her memory and let it live on.
You can cry and close your mind,
be empty and turn your back.
Or you can do what she'd want: SMILE, OPEN YOUR EYES and GO ON"

R.I.P Grandma..You are always missed and Cherished in our hearts...God Bless...

To live in hearts we leave behind is not to die-Thomas Campbell

Is this the path designated? I ponder and ponder till eternity.....