Final Week of PPISMP Sem 2

This is the final week of semester 2 PPISMP...i am extremely busy this sem.many folders to be completed and assignments to be done. i guess it is becuase of this hectic schedule that i fall sick until now.i have been having flu for the past 4 days and it aint getting better. i am kinda worried actually as the hols are approaching and i am not at my best.plus, my parents will be very worried once they know that i am sick..i hope i get well soon. cross my fingers for that. due to my weak body condition, i have become kinda close to 2 of my seniors. they helped me to get the remedies i need. thanks guys!i owe you a million thanks.one day, it will be my turn to help you guys and i am obliged and glad to do it. god bless the both of you. have a safe journey home ya!!drive safely!!if you are sleepy, stop driving and get some rest!!omg~i am being a nanny here...nagging...anyway, do take care ya!=)

Moving on, my class had a dinner!!it was awesome!!VIP table..hahaha....love my friends for it!!!it was held at Sumai Hotel Apartments!!can never forget that dinner!!!

What a week!!!!

This week is a very special week. My body is so tired that I can no longer take it. And the culprit of this is my monthly menses. By far, this is the worst that I have ever had. It is so terrible to the extent that I can't even stand long. arghh!!!this is the time where I wish I was born a boy..less trouble...haihh....what is a girl to do~
Plus, I have lots to do...The Timbalan Pengarah's speech text, ES task, Macbeth Acc...and I am at the verge of fainting!!
Oh ya people, yesterday I went to Dewan Kebudayaan with the Macbeth production team to have their rehearsal at the stage...my comment of that place: badly maintained and smelly!!! Other than those 2 cons, the rest are PERFECT!!


Next topic...
Lately,there is this guy(lets call him A) in my campus who has been sending text messages to me all the time. This guy is in my batch of intake but different course. I can sense that sth is going to happen but I am letting it be as it is going to be...hehehe...Simple Present Continuous Tense....well, back to the story...Today, there was this Retirement Ceremony for 2 lecturers. I was sitting on the podium. FYI, the podium is a great place to stalk people..hehe...So, it was at the ending where I felt so embarrassed. The story goes like this:
Everyone began to leave the podium. I was the last to leave the place. I was still keeping my stuffs and I had just sent a message to A. My roomate went without me as she need to rush to class. Throughout the 2 hours ceremony, I was busy SMS-ing with A. Well, practically, I was bored. To my greatest humiliation, I saw A's friend reading my message on A's hp. I was like WHAT??!!!dang!!!the greatest humiliation of my lifetime!!! Getting back to my senses, I thought that maybe A's friend was looking at pictures, perhaps??=S
Having convinced myself, I proceed to the cafe and then to the Koperasi and back to the cafe..NO FOOD!!arghh!!!I decided to walk one final time to the Koperasi...I bumped into A's friend who has been "reading my message"...He smiled wryly at me and greeted me...CREEPY and EWWWYYY!!!then I bumped into 2 more of A's friends. One of them asked me,"Hello!!Where is A?"...I was dumbfounded!!Hello people, we are not even in a relationship!!!haishh...A's girl friend(I mean the girls in his class) told me lately that A likes to mention my name in class...ermmm...What is that supposed to mean??>.<
Then, on the way back to the hostel, A's friend, who is a very very reserved guy, suddenly greeted and called my name....What on earth is happening??? 


Whatever it is, right now, I am acting as though nothing of this happens...adios!

Emotions Unleashed

I have realised this.I am very good at stirring up deep emotions when I started studying in IPGKDRI. This is so evident in Semester 2 of Foundation. Why? Because I have been disappointed many times. Because I have been looked down upon many times. Because my heart has been shattered many times. Because of what people see and perceive me to be many times. Because this whole place sucks! I will be frank here...If you dont like it, then it is your problem. In searching of the real me in this campus, I have concluded that people perceive me as an invisible figure. Straight to the point now..


POINT 1
i am SICK of being a sidekick!!!Whenever there is any event or activity related to English, I always get to be the treasurer!I am only worth to be a treasurer...I guess for the whole time I am studying here, I will be married to the treasurer post.It really hurts my feelings to be treated in such a way. This shows how much unworthy I am. This shows how much they are confident of me. I have always thought that this will be the breaking ground for me to gain some useful experience..Guess i just get to experience what it feels like to be a treasurer...afterall, being a TREASURER is also an "USEFUL" one. Now, I am very well known among TESLians COHORT 2 as the LOANSHARK...life....


POINT 2
This is regarding to Macbeth...again...ya..you are right...i am the TREASURER...people find me when they need money...and I find people when I need their proof of purchases.. I am being used for the sake of others..What am I to do...I am very "HAPPY" to be done so..Plus, i finally get to see the insignificance of being a scriptwriter...She used me to get the script done, and after that, Adios amigos...no appreciation whatsoever...I wonder whether she has feelings..


POINT 3
Just because I mix around with this certain group of people, it doesn't mean I act like them. I have different education background and hence different mindset. Just because that group of people say bad things about you, that doesn't mean I am like that too...I am always the victim of situations...Please dear seniors, I am not what you perceive!Come talk to me and get the clear picture.And to the senior who called me "Budak kurang ajar" during Aerobics Competition, I have this to tell you. I DID NOT EVEN SCOLD YOU OR YOUR FRIENDS. I HAPPEN TO BE THERE AND HAPPEN TO BE THE OFFENDER'S FRIEND.JUST BECAUSE I WAS WITH HER, DOESN'T MEAN I DID THE SAME THING AS SHE DID!




And so, this is the life of a loser, who wastes her time in an institution where unfairness rules and truth is hidden.

Monday after Labour Day,2011

Today is a great day for me. Firstly, I saw a very macho guy..Senior Sem 7..One fine piece of God's creation. Out of the 3 subjects in my timetable, only 1 subject was on going which was Language Development (LDV). We did our KKP Presentation. I was really nervous. Finally, it is over. YAY! The dark side of it is I did flop in my presentation. This is a confirmed low mark!!I am very disappointed about this!So, this was how my day in class went:

7.45am-9.45am--->As usual, this is the Eng Studies period. On every Monday, during this time, we are to gather in our respective committees in the Macbeth dramatization. I did nothing actually. This was when I witnessed the final moments of a fish in the fish pond. It has a big hole on its head, thanks to its fishy friends who ate it..damn!

9.45am-10.15am--->Had my lunch with Schiarielynn, Preet, Dinesh, Florance, William, Gabriel..when we came back from the cafe, the fish was still there, struggling to stay alive..it is a sad sight...We took some pictures by the pond.=)..this is exactly the moment where the words that came out from Preet's mouth hurt my feelings..She told me that my close friend has went for her lunch...I was shocked...She didn't even tell me..what more of inviting me to join them..I don't have a place among them...At least, she should have the effort of informing me aite? She just went off with another friend of mine..It hurts alot to see them abandoning me...It is as though I am present in their minds and eyes only during the moments that I am needed, like when they need a ride to town...Actually, this cold situation between me and the girl has been for quite a moment. I have no idea what I have done wrong. She is totally ignoring me.. Well, it seems that this semester, I will be a lone ranger..I am fine with it.. As long as I don't get off the track, it is OK with me..All the time, after class, she just walks off without even informing or waiting for me like she used to. Sometimes, it makes me wonder whether I have a bad attitude that irritates her...Do I??only God knows. Lately, I noticed that she has a new click of friends..She sticks to them like glue...Even on the way back to the hostel, to the cafe or to anywhere else, she just clings on to them. If only she knows how dreadfully painful it is to see her once close friend witnessing everything and keep on blaming herself for all the uncertainties surrounding their friendship. To be honest, I have tried my best in securing this friendship and it ain't an easy task. I have failed. She don't need me anymore. I am now a piece of junk in her life. Whatever it is, the library is now my new companion in life. If you are sharp enough, you will notice that most of my time is spent in the library. To me, the only place to keep my head is the library. The serenity helps me alot. Bliss of solitude...I hope that one day, she will finally realise all this and step up to re-tie our broken friendship. I am still putting high hopes on this piece of torn rope...hoping that you will come with the other half and together we can tie it to one knot. My fingers are crossed for this miracle to happen...If you refuse, I have nothing to say but this, It is nice knowing you and once being your friend, I have learnt the most important lesson in my life: I CAN LIVE ON MY OWN. I DON'T NEED PEOPLE LIKE YOU CAUSE YOU ONLY HURT MY HEART